Light of Your Halo

Remember those walls I built?
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But, I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out!

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm taking
I'm never gonna shut you out!

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can feel your halo
I pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
I pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo

不想

今晚真的很不想你去
每次你去我都按着良心说
“出去要小心一点”
“要记得让我知道你的状况”
其实心里真的很不想让你去
可是我可以做什么?...
不可能绑着你吧...

你跟你的朋友出去
心虽然会有点不爽
可是我还是没反对
我对你很有信心
可是为什么不能知道你
在做什么啊?
去哪里啊?
说我三八吧
因为我在乎你的每一天
可能就觉得没这个必要
可是对我来说
每件小事都是个必要
想知道你每天过得怎样
开不开心?做了什么?
去了哪里?跟谁在一起?
吃了没有?今天很累吗?

今天的是真的很抱歉
我不是故意发脾气的
想像看如果你在跟一个对你很重要，很爱的人在讲电话... 她不但不理会你在讲什么...她还在跟别人传简讯...后来还把你的电话给关了...你第一个反应是不是很生气?
后来才知道不是故意的...
是我的错我认是我不好
没清清楚楚的查就发脾气了
对不起

真的很不想你去...
可是又怎样?...
呆在这等着你回来吧...

I was wrong

I needed you more than anything...
So much more...
I was really sad...
Because I love you so much
Made my mind go through all sorts of things
Thinking of every posibilities
Making everything harder and harder
Sorry babe~
I thought too much back then...
Everything is just plain simple actually
Just by having FAITH can overcome everything

You said that the dream of mine that i told you was just a story made up
It was actually for real...
I dreamed that i held you through the night
Somehow the phone rang~
Woke me up only ><
Really miss you...
When I walk on the streets, when I'm asleep,
When I'm driving, When I do everything
Waves of your taste just filled the air
I miss you so much...

Though I may not like some parts
But isn't that tolerate will do?
I can't be that selfish though
I can't make you into a robot that hears the command
It ain't you anymore if that does

No matter what
The most important part of it is that
I love you

迟了

心情很差很差...
答应了宝贝要早回来
结果还是迟回家...
知道宝贝不喜欢等就赶回家
拒绝了他们说要回家了
可是迟了
真的很内疚， 对自己很失望
答应过了可是还是做不到
宝贝， 对不起...

睡不着， 已经五点了...
脑里一直在想着你
在想怎样才能把你的气除掉
怎样才能把你弄得开开心心的
怎样才能把你的心情变一到彩虹
怎样才能把你的笨蛋给原谅

一整晚一直看着电脑
等着你...
一整晚一直握着电话
等着你...
知道等人的感受是不好受
偏偏我每次都让你等
让你一直感到很难受
宝贝...对不起

一直看着你的照片
看着你的笑容
心好疼...
为什么每次都要让你难过
为什么每次都让你生气
为什么...
真的很想天天都可以看见你的笑容
每一次看见你的笑容
不知道为什么
觉得很开心很满足了

你的声音，你的笑容
可以把我的全部烦恼都带走
还记得上一次
当我很烦很烦的时候
接了你的电话
突然好神奇的全部烦恼都被带走了

原谅我，好吗宝贝?

宝贝， 我好想念你...
好一个蓝色晚上
好静好静...
平时听见的电话声不再发出了...

你问我
如果你跟一位男生出街我会吃醋吗
我会...我承认我会
就一个很简单的理由
我爱你

T.T 宝贝！！！

宝贝！！！
对不起！！！
又弄你生气了 =x
这个大笨蛋又弄宝贝生气了！！！
宝贝原谅我好吗?
都是我不好！！！ 没遵守诺言！！！
说要早回， 结果凌晨一点才回到家
刚才就拼命的赶回来
宝贝对不起！！！
知道你讨厌等， 宝贝！！都是我的错！！
对不起对不起对不起！！！
对不起对不起对不起！！！
答应你以后不会再有了！！！
宝贝！！！

心疼

下定了决心
要读你的部落恪
好坚持的要读完全部
可是...就在第一篇我失败了
我投降， 我读不起你所写的部落恪

真的看不下去
看不下去你每一天很悲很辛苦的过
心真的很疼很疼
都是我的错！！
真的原谅不到自己！！
你没怪我
可是事实上我还是原谅不到自己

在那些时候， 说了伤人的话
是因为真的不想让你受更重的伤
就那些话你可以把我当做是个坏人
是个不值得你为他流下什么的人
那就可以减轻了你的伤。。。

太爱你不想让你受伤， 一时冲动没想后果而言

我错了。。。
宝贝， 对不起。。。
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你又刚给我网站叫我去读
我开了。。。也对自己说了我一定要把它读完
结果。。。
还是一样的。。。我真的看不下去
心好疼。。。 从来没这种感觉
很怕，很痛的感觉。。。
真的看不下去。。。
答应你我不会在让你打出那些同类的部落恪

Fist full of blood

Blood flowing out..drip by drip..
Heart pumping so fast... never seen before..
So fast... so fast...
Tears flow down...So much...
My head is going burst soon..
feel so dizzy...haven't eaten... haven't drink
Haven't told u...
I got my dairy writing pratice from NS...
I wrote down my dairy everyday when im in NS..
So mayb I'm used to writing what happen already

I'm sorry for what i've done. what i've said
Mayb this mountain seems falling down
But trust me...this mountain still remains strong..
Every fallen part will be replace... Even it meant my own life
I'll try the best i can to make it up...even a higher moutain than before
Sometimes it may seems impossible
But I will never forgive myself...

I love you
Though it may seems unreliable...
I dont blame you...
I was the one at fault...
I never think deeper...
never thought of your feelings...
It may seems like a better way...
But never thought the way taken was worse...
Im sorry I've hurt you
But still i wanna say that
I love you, I really do

Last Night

When i was down
Desperate, irritated
Lost, Blank-minded

Just a phone call,
heard your voice
Felt your warmth in your words
Everything, every weight
Just like that...gone..vanish...
Felt so free again, so light again
The whole world just turned upside down
Was so glad, relieved, happy..
Laopo.. Thank you =)

Sorry I made you worried the whole night
Made you can't sleep the whole night
My fault... made you worried so much

You are my light, my strength
my soul,my everything
And you are mine also =P
Laopo, I love you =)

Tonight

就很不清醒地架车出。。。
很快很快。。。很怕可是越来越快。。。
很多事很烦。。。很想避开它们。。。

我的勇气不知已经流到哪儿了
不敢， 不敢， 不敢
害怕， 害怕， 害怕
失去了勇气。。。如何找回?
还是可怕的东西越来越多了，
而不是勇气散了?
有可能终有一天那份勇气会出现吧

坐在车子里一小时， 发着呆
脑里出现了很多很多问号。。。
是吗? 真的吗? 为什么? 谁? 发生什么事了? 在哪里?

算了吧
随便吧。。。就随便吧
不想再想了。。。
永远都得不到的答案
问了， 答了又何用。。。
一个接一个的问题。。。
到了最后还是一个问号
随便吧。。。可能到最后就从梦里醒过来了

烦。。。自己都不知道自己在写什么
脑里一片空白。。。
刚才差一点就。。。
随便吧。。都不重要

Babe you're mine~

Knew you too well.. too well..
Knew you would cry.. so much..
Stabs my heart just by knowing your tears flow

Ask me how i know you're crying?
Ask me how i know you're happy?
Simple answer i can give you
You're already part of my soul, my life
You're already part of my everything

I'll always remember that someone is still there
Waiting for me
Like I remember how to drink a cup of water
So what you wrote don't worry o~
Cuz you are already part of me that's impossible to forget
Just like I remember how to breath
Teach me forget how to breath then you can tell that I've forgotten you

You're mine~
Bendan don't cry already
I'm not there to wipe away those tears
Baobei... still the same words that will never change
I love you

Night

(Midnight 1:48am 12/4/09)
Hee... I haven't sleep yet
Lying on the bed still can't sleep

Baobei... I miss you...
So much...
Why my eyes so much sand blow in?
Huff...

Tomorrow I'm going back to my camp already
Really miss you so much...
Never thought that I would miss you so much
so madly, lost my mind...
One after another song, my tears roll down
But I'll be strong to get through these months!!

Even so... I'm still worried bout you baobei...
After tomorrow another goodbye...
I never wanted to say those words...
So sometimes I don't say it...
Really wondering how are your days like after tomorrow?
Hard? Difficult? Tough? Tired?

I wanna hold that hands of yours soon!!
Bendan, must remember to take good care...
Love you always my babe<3

Promise

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go



This morning my tears flow down...
Like never before
I miss you so much...

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99 亲手打的我爱你
No copy and paste de a =P

宝贝宝贝~

Yesterday night you asked me that am I sad
I told you that I’m fine
I wonder how can you feel it? =S
Actually I’m not sad but in fact I’m quite disappointed with myself
Feel so useless
Hee… Hope you don’t mind
You don’t want me to read your blog
But I read your blog secretly =x

Bendan… Can’t deny, you made my tears flow again…
Such a deep stab on my heart to see what you wrote
Every single pieces, how you carry on day by day
HOW HARD HOW DIFFICULT
Baobei Thank You!!

How madly you need me by your side?
I can’t be there for you now…
I really don’t know what to do what to say except Sorry
You needed me but I can’t be there for you now…
For now only!!! Just for NOW!!!

Babe those words I said last time
Let it turn into ashes~
I’m sorry
I didn’t say it on purpose
I didn’t mean to hurt you
Please forgive me bebe ><
Those words never existed

Know? To be honest...
Every promises I made I kept it
Even though sometimes it's hard to believe
But I never let go of my promises
Told you, never an empty promise

Miss those hands of yours, those eyes, that face
Miss your smile, miss your voice, miss your gentle breath
Miss your everything

宝贝等我回来
我不会让你白等的
我答应过你！！
就算多苦， 有你就可以把一切都变得甜的

记得要好好照顾自己！！！
知道吗? 不可以把健康当游戏玩！！！
你每次都叫我放心
可是你都把我的心带走了~
所以我永远都不会放心你的，宝贝 =P

宝贝记得要坚强过这两个月！！
后来会有个依靠了
一个肩膀给你靠
一双手给你牵
一个温软的拥抱给你抱
把你天天都宠坏 =P

笨蛋！！我们俩一起加油喔~
要好好的过每一天
还有~ 不要天天再乱想了知道吗?
就算多辛苦我还是一样会没事
因为有了你， 多苦都是没关系的
永远都爱着我的小笨蛋
一天比一天更爱更疼
宝贝等我喔

Baobei

Bendan Baobei =)
What happened yesterday? How’s your day today? Tomorrow?
Day after that? Next Week? Next Month?
It’s so difficult just to know what you’ve been through every single day
I cant do anything at all… How helpless I am?

Every single tear flow shows how useless I am
When can I wipe those tears away? When…

On the phone, I heard everything clearly everytime
Every single breath, every single tears
Too clear, too pain, too deep…

You said that you are useless
Only know how to cry and cannot do anything
But in fact, you took the big part of it
You waited… How long? How hard? How lonely?
You took it all by yourself…

Everytime you said “everything’s alright”
But deep down is it really alright?
Just so that I can be relieved?

I saw too much tears than it should be...
But there’s even more that is hidden that I dint see…

Haha…you told me how others been through together
Mayb we’ve been through together in a shorter period
But I dare to say that we’ve been through even deeper
Deeper than others a lot more…

Everyday..EVERYDAY!! I tried to be stronger
The fact is that… everyday I’ve fallen deeper down
haha… In front of so many people my tears always nearly flow down
But luckily no one saw =P I held so tight!!
If not later shy if some1 saw =x

Those promises I made I wrote it down
But mayb some I’ve forgotten =P
I promise that those promises I made is not just to please you
I really mean it!! I wont let you wait for nothing… =)

Remember how you told me that “Forever” is a very hard word to use
But I promised before that I’ll make you use it
And I did it, I’ve done what I promised… =D
No empty promises!!!


You gave me everything i needed
I'm like a fish out of the water and you, the water came and and drown me in it
Drowned deeply in your love
You're the only person in my life that could made my tears flow.. perhaps u gave me poison =P
You're my everything
Neither Time nor Distance will tear us apart!!
No matter how hard how long it is, we will make it
Baobei 我愛你..