Fist full of blood

Blood flowing out..drip by drip..
Heart pumping so fast... never seen before..
So fast... so fast...
Tears flow down...So much...
My head is going burst soon..
feel so dizzy...haven't eaten... haven't drink
Haven't told u...
I got my dairy writing pratice from NS...
I wrote down my dairy everyday when im in NS..
So mayb I'm used to writing what happen already

I'm sorry for what i've done. what i've said
Mayb this mountain seems falling down
But trust me...this mountain still remains strong..
Every fallen part will be replace... Even it meant my own life
I'll try the best i can to make it up...even a higher moutain than before
Sometimes it may seems impossible
But I will never forgive myself...

I love you
Though it may seems unreliable...
I dont blame you...
I was the one at fault...
I never think deeper...
never thought of your feelings...
It may seems like a better way...
But never thought the way taken was worse...
Im sorry I've hurt you
But still i wanna say that
I love you, I really do